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So DiGRAA – the Australian chapter of the intl. Game Studies research organisation held its first conference on Tuesday. I presented a paper based on some stuff I’ve been working on on the side of thesis, and which everyone had good things to say about. I’ll try and work that stuff into a proper paper soon as my thesis is done in July (fingers crossed) and maybe I’ll try turning the paper version into a video essay too. I think it’ll work well in that format.
But I was also on a panel to talk about the stuff I did with Critical Distance, which seemed pretty popular too. I met Scott Knight from Bond University who mentioned that a ton of his students read Critical Distance when doing games writing/research/work, so that was a nice surprise. The panel was recorded thanks to Maize Wallin of Glitchmark. Thank to Dan Golding for organising and inviting me to speak.
So I gave this talk at Critical Proximity a couple weeks back and tried to just share some memorys from blaggin and doing CritDist. My slides are here on the CritProx website.
These guys are the best of the best.
This is perhaps the greatest game ever made, all attempts to top it are in vain. Give up on your puny pathetic games now. Thus spake the 10rd.
if someone asked me right now and forced me to answer honestly, “will you miss gdc?” i would have to answer “not especially.” this is not because it wasnt good or great or amazing – it certainly was all those things at times for me. and its not because i wont miss the people, because i will. instead its because i cannot really have normal human responses right now. as ive mentioned to a couple of people, i am just so completely overwhelmed and overshadowed by the entire thesis object, which looms over and above me, blocking out all the light and any ability to see and live normally. i have been living with it, in this final interstitial “finishing” phase, for over a year now and it has restricted my ability to anticipate and enjoy anything fully. its a terrifying gradual process and i had no idea what i was getting into when i started… i had no idea this was going to be the result. I cant even imagine how long or what it will take to get me back to being me again. such is its force that it prevents me from envisioning credibly anything post-phd… maybe it will only take a day, or a week, from handing it in. whatever, dont go having any strong feelings about my situation either, its no ones fault but mine and its not the end of the world… its just a numbing, a deadening of the sensory responses by the always present knowledge that it’s not yet done. it literally sucks all my ability for anticipation because i literally want nothing else more than for it to be done. but that want is not a fiery want, its more like a smouldering coal fire, deep underground that changes the geological makeup of the local environment. there might not be much felt heat or smoke, but its there… underground… waiting… working…
also theres something a bit disenchanting about being at GDC without having done anything really vital in the scene for so long. i didnt really have anything to tell people about or discuss excitedly. im not making a game, not reviewing games, not even critiquing games, barely even publishing about games… its fine, im pivoting, but its weird. its always been weird. who the hell am i in games anyway? who was i and who will i be? are these questions even worth asking? …
shoutouts to some amazing people this week who managed to penetrate even my soporific stupor: richard lemarchand who literally brings tears to my eyes when i think about him sometimes. harry lee who provokes similar feelings and admiration. my friend brendan keogh who is basically a rock of a human being, does anything upset that man? who can say. michael abbott who is a fucking rock star. laura parker who is completely and utterly fearless and charming. kris ligman who deserves a better world than this one.
shout outs to everyone i hung out with and shout-outs to all the other really cool people who i didnt get to spend as much time as i would have liked to, too many to name, too many to note.
Critical Distance has a Patreon now and it’s great, the site’s gonna really go places.
I don’t think anyone really reads my blog anymore (least, not anyone who doesn’t come via weird google searches or my twitter) so I didn’t think to promote it here but just in case.
If you’re into games writing/blogging/criticism Critical Distance is worth supporting. Honest.
I wrote an essay on the way games have depicted climate change for Memory Insufficient. I was pretty happy with how this turned out, and the plan is to whip it up into a more fleshed out paper later in the year. I haven’t had a chance to read the other essays but if prior issues of Memory Insufficient are any guide, they’ll be worth checking out too.